SiD’s Sphere!!

I had worked my *** off over the weekend to prepare the SP presentation, which i had got to know abt only on Saturday. Searched for an research article online, read a 30 page article on ‘Determinants of Youth Smoking’, and made a presentation. But still wasnt so well prepared.Thanked my lucky stars when I couldnt arrange the multimedia for the class. (being the new cr thats my responsibility..dont doubt my capabilities, IBA has just 2 multimedia projectors for some 12 rooms)

so anyway, as the teacher hadnt sheduled anything for the class, and because she’s been in a particularly good mood ever since more than half the class has dropped the subject, she said she would evaluate us all. a test??? noooo. but our fears were soon laid to rest. she told us she was a clinical psycholgist and she would evaluate us all PSYCHOLOGICALLY.

oh wow!! id been wanting that for ages now. she asked us all to draw a human figure on a blank paper and then show it to her. and using that picture shed tell us abt ourselves.

i’ll upload what i drew day after tom, coz my laptop wont let me.. anyway, the whole class(just some 15 o us:D) was surprised i’d drawn somethin so quickly. i took it to her. she took a look at it, maybe trying to control her laughter and then started with the analysis and this is what she had to say abt me.

1. i have a low self esteem
2. i have a strong desire to feel loved
3. i want ppl to notice me
4. i am quite immature

now this was as embarrassing as it was true…low self esteem..no doublt. i know i m a worthless piece of ****.although i do have a very high self efficacy. i have wanted to have someone to hug… to have someone to hold me close to him/herself and make me feel loved. that is something i have never felt my entire life.
that i want to be noticed is also true.. that i cant approach ppl, initiate conversations, but want ppl to come to me. immature?? i dont know. what do u say??

at first i though it was all general stuff that she’d say to everybody.. but she came up with different analysis for everybody’s picture and almost everyone agreed to whatever she said abt them. oh btw, she wasnt telling us abt ourselves in front of the class. she would talk to all of us individually. either..she’s been observing all of us very keenly for the last 3 months or maybe the picture really did speak volumes abt our personality..its freaky to be that transparent to some1.

I’ve always an early end to my life but never as much as I do now. Not that I’m depressed or sick of my life or anything of the sort; this time its just to prove you wrong that you wont die before me and that your logic doesn’t make any sense to me..
But I am smiling. Coz I promised you. I am happy. I guess in all these years I have learnt all your lessons..:P

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…

poor bahii had an appointment wid the dentist today just before the tarawis. ended up chewing up words and ended them 10 mins before the average time. all of us hardly even finished our duruds and dua that follows durud and he would finish with the salam. and then we didnt even stand up again, when he would start with the next 2.. must have been painful for him.
he finished the 28 th para today and inshallah tuesday night he’d finish the whole quran. he usually just recites half a para on the last 2 or 3 days.
every year(we’ve been having tarawis at our place for some 5 or 6 years now), we’d have around 10 or more neighbourhood women who were really excited abt getting a chance to pray, but this time someone told daji that its not adviceable for women to leave their house to pray. Its better for them to pray within the confines of their own house so dadu didnt invite any women, and politely turned down any who wanted to come. I really dont understand the sense though… What abt khana Ka’aaba and the Masjid e Nabvi, but then again, its no use arguing with them.
So its just been the three of us back in the women’s room and a few men in the men’s room. Even the men are few in number coz we live opposite the mosque so ppl prefer to go there.
I just wish i understood the meaning of all that was being recited. So many times, i’ve decided to start reading the Quran with translation but somehow, i never find the time. I know these are just lame excuses…
I feel the need to be Guided more than ever before…