SiD’s Sphere!!

new mission: counting my blessings.

for the first time in ages, i wasnt woken up by an sms today mornin. i had to drag myself out o bed at 11 coz ammis got used to me makin the mornin tea. so there i was, standin in the kitchen with a gloomy face makin tea when in walks minhel, my 14 year old cuz. even though i was pretty frustrated in the beginning why there had to be so many ppl in the house when i wanted to be alone. anyway, he came in and asked ‘kia hoa?’ and i replied with an indifferent ‘kuch nahin’.
at that, he pulled both my cheeks together and said ‘toa phir aise raha karein na’. hehehhe.. when he let go, my lips had automatically curved into a smile.

the only 2 ppl who can make me reallly laugh aaj kal.

on the left is aarish who missed his mid tern coz he was too sick but stayed up late talkin to me.
on the right is shakiba who got mugged coz of me yesterday.

hehehhe.. she and daud were out drivin yesterday, when she decided to call me from some cell phone that she had recently got for 20k.(im bad with rememberin cellphone models) i was away at that time so couldnt pick up. but someone on a bike behind them spotted her phone. on the next signal, the mugger sat himself in the car and asked for her phone. both daud and she had the same phone, so daud gave up his along with his $600 ki watch and his wallet. shakiba during the while and hid her phone under her leg. and that was the time i chose to sms her. ‘did u call?’. hahaha.. the phone beeped and she had to give up hers as well. i was out in the car with dad when she called to tell me and i was like ‘u want to get me mugged now?’

thankyou both of u. while talkin to u, i forget all abt my own depressed self.

the only 2 ppl who can make me reallly laugh aaj kal.

on the left is aarish who missed his mid tern coz he was too sick but stayed up late talkin to me.
on the right is shakiba who got mugged coz of me yesterday.

hehehhe.. she and daud were out drivin yesterday, when she decided to call me from some cell phone that she had recently got for 20k.(im bad with rememberin cellphone models) i was away at that time so couldnt pick up. but someone on a bike behind them spotted her phone. on the next signal, the mugger sat himself in the car and asked for her phone. both daud and she had the same phone, so daud gave up his along with his $600 ki watch and his wallet. shakiba during the while and hid her phone under her leg. and that was the time i chose to sms her. ‘did u call?’. hahaha.. the phone beeped and she had to give up hers as well. i was out in the car with dad when she called to tell me and i was like ‘u want to get me mugged now?’

thankyou both of u. while talkin to u, i forget all abt my own depressed self.

When u first added me on icq on 26th March 2002, i never knew you would become such an important part of my life. What started as chatting every night turned into daily phone calls adn when u got too busy to come online the 3 or 4 calls a day along with sms’s all day was what my whole day revolved around.
u made me fall madly in love with u. the first blow came three years ago, when ur family started askin u to get married. that was when u told me that had i been 5 years older, u wouldnt have thought twice. ur proposal to s didnt work out and in a few months u came back to me. and from that point on i was there by ur side through thick and thin. with the beginning of this year, ur family started pressurising u again. after goin to a different girls house every sunday u finally settled for A, and got engaged.
and when i should have taken my cue and stepped back, we got closer and closer with each passin day. and that is what makes the pain so mcuh more unbearable. u always asked me to learn to stay happy ‘with or without u’. i cannot imagine a without u.
u always told me that what we had was somethng special and didnt need to be given a wordly form. i always believed that we were connected by a higher power.
wrong….nothing will ever be the same now.
for the past 4 years, whatever i did was to make u smile. now, i have no motivation left. on such a big day in ur life, all i can think abt is myself and my loss.
i will never dream again.
an sms will not wake me up every mornin. and my phone willl not vibrate every once in a while. once again, i have noone.

Congratulations!! May ur new life bring along with it lots of happiness and joy.

hahahahah….2 very good friends asked me to marry them. and one of them actually meant it.

F’s family is after him like anything to settle down. they keep showing him girls and he keeps sayin no. he was pretty fed up of it when as usual sid came to rescue. allll my friends know i give the best pep talk ever so they all come to me when they’re depressed or stressed. and during that conversation, he was like ‘why dont u marry me? ure the best girl i know’. heheh. obviously i had to turn him down.

A on the other hand is always playfully flirtin with me

A says:
marry me
Sid says:
thts the 2nd proposal im gettin this week
A says:
which one u accepting ?
Sid says:
give me reasons why i should accept urs
A says:
u give me reasons why not to
Sid says:
im already married
A says:
talaq lay lo
Sid says:
mein bhi yehi soch rahi hun
A says:
tumhain eik shareef gharelo husband milay ga
Sid says:
what if mujhay nahin chahiye?
A says:
k then na karo
Sid says:
A says:
it was easy enough to say yes or no …itnay nakhray
Sid says:
hey.. im posting this conversation on my blog. do u want me to change ur nick ?
Sid says:
A says:
yes please
A says:
change it
A says:
if u r not marrying me i dont want other options running away too

hahahahha…all of a sudden im in demand.

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this qawwali truly grows on you, and the melody moves you to another world for some while. using it as an escape right now. and veryone in earshot is wondering whats wrong with me.
for all those who want to know: everything. nothin is rigth, right now.
to begin with, everytime i open the tv, or read any news on the ongoing crisis in lebanon, its just so frustrating. why doesnt someone take notice? why is noone doing anything? we’re all ready to foul mouth bush and israel and musharraf and the likes but what is ANYONE doing? a revolutions starts at the grassroot level. Individual efforts count. An uprising starts by standing up of an individual. but we go all go abt our daily businesses. I was readin an interview of the Israeli foreign minister, and according to her ’someone who sleeps witha missile can expect an attack’ and that is why they’re bombing civilians. and to wipe out Hizbullah they’re ready to go to any meaures. And why do they want to finish Hizbullah?? coz Hizbullah is a “threat to the region and to international community”. who r the ppl who buy those statements? can the western world not see the injustice? the Middle East was not responsible for the holocaust in World War II. so why r they paying for it?
enough politics. it just makes me mad. back to homefront. 2 more days and my metaphorical right arm will be cut off. Ive already unscrewed it myself. only the rippin apart part is left. the arm doesnt want to come off. but i want it to remain safe from the disease that plagues the rest of me. ive been complaining to ammi of chest pains and that i cant swallow food. she wanted to take me to a doctor but i refused. I know the problem is more psychological than physical. and if i tell her, i need therapy, she wouldnt know what to make of it. One of my major concerns has been that i have nothin to fall back on so ive tried connecting with her but to no avail. we never had the mother-daughter bond and its too late to start now. i lashed out on her again. i was talkin to her abt sthg when younger brother came in to get permission to go to a picnic with his friends adn she said yes without a moments hesitation.
me: i have a batch party on sunday as well
her: so what?
me: u let him go anywhere. u have to let me go to too.
her: no. u cant go.
me: hes the one who needs to be kept an eye on and u ve given him a free hand. why put restrictions on me when im only askin to go to a batch get together.
her: he’s in control. u dont need to worry.
me: yes. very. smoking, pornography- in control. the next thing u know he d be drinkin and goin to prostitutes.

ammi has other worries right now. all 4 of my paternal aunts are comin to stay for 15 days. i know that sounds funny. but it really is quite a situation. grandma makes ammi work like a mule and instead of givin her any credit, ammi is made to feel like an outcast in her own home with everyone teaming up against her. the tension is still all under the surface. but the eruption is not very far away. we’re still kids and are not expected to interfere.

life is an at all time low. and theres nothing i can do.

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for a moment, it seemed like a heavy downpour was comin. really huge drops came down and i cheered up but the sun came out just as quickly.

:’(

why dont dreasm actually come true??

it just started to rain. no more sulkin.

the farewell dinner
the dreaded presentaions.

girl powerrrrrr

dentonics ka ad. the annual dinner.

A heated debate …lolz.
this was right before the social psychology hourly. we had all lost our minds by now.

stupid throwball…:(
the only time ull see everyone studying…right before the hourlies

ice cream+ rain + friend= perfect combination

Birthdays and the yummy cakes
The welcome at Royal Rodale