SiD’s Sphere!!

The Pakistani Spectator interviews bloggers regularly. I was interviewed today.

Click here for my views on the future of Pakistani blogosphere…

I stopped keeping count of the number of times I clicked on the ‘New Post’ button and then a few hours later when I was shutting down the PC, i closed the tab with the empty text space mocking me.

But right now, I feel a pressing need to write. Hey, didn’t i promise myself to document my life. A record of what I’ve been thinking almost everyday day of my life would be something. Right now, there are too many gaps again that I will try and fill in this post.

One thing that I’ve wanted to write about a long time is my internship. Remember this post last year when I said

Selling soaps, diapers or buiscuits or arranging finance to manufacure the same is not my calling in life.

Well guess where I’ll be spending 10 weeks beginning June 9? Procter & Gamble. It’s ironic not just that even after being vehemently opposed to working at such a place, I’m going to be interning there; but it is completely mind boggling, that all the people who desperately wanted to intern there and were thus working hard to prepare for the interviews didn’t make it and I, the only person who refused to take a mock interview or even got my resume checked by a senior, got selected. I’m not very proud of myself for this. This is just a proof for me that if I wasn’t lazy enough to apply at places I would have liked to work at, I could have bagged that too. I never applied to State Bank because th application had to be attested and what not…and back then, I just didn’t have the time. I asked a friend where I should apply if I want to go on to study economics and well, he just laughed at me. the same friend, I now consider just another cog in the corporate wheel. I never tried searching for any options myself. As always, I just sat back and let life happen to me instead of getting up and happening to life…

Even though I felt that where I interned this summer was going to be very crucial in defining my future, but now I’m lookin forward to P&G. maybe next year… I’ll be more proactive.

Life otherwise, has been the same. Except for the time last week when I read a note by Ramla Akhtar on Facebook. It was called ‘Benevolent Intent, Relationships, and the Fallacy of the Two‘

In the discussion that followed, someone very aptly answered one of my questions in the following words:

I feel the Oak and the Cypress dont grow under each other’s shadow, the two parties should not try to complete each other as they would feel a sense of void, if there is dependence on one person.http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=9462424
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Harmony can only exist when the two parties respect each other and both have something for themselves at the end of the day to fall upon than each other as parasites; these conflicts of Self would not occur, rather as mentioned a selfless approach to life.

It hit me. My immediate response was;

Sidrat Asim is neither cypress nor oak
A parasite in a deciduous cloak

And guess what.. I’ve stopped being a parasite now. It was that simple. And it has been gr8 ever since. So many people have tried so hard to instill positivity in me and these few lines is all it took. But then I also remember this which a few days later was followed by this.

Let’s see how long this phase lasts..